excuses, excuses

the biggest excuse i hear from people is "i'm like this because my parents....".  there's a point in our lives where we have to stop making excuses and blaming other people for the reason why things are the way they are.  no parent is perfect - that's for sure.  but, if you're an adult, and are still blaming your shortcomings on "the way you were raised", it's time shut up and change it.

you get to a certain age where you finally understand the difference between right and wrong.  quit blaming your past - you can't change it. if you're unhappy with something, change it.  yes, it will take work - but the more you make excuses, the longer it will stay the same.

i've been on this trip lately about people making excuses.  it's f***ing annoying.  i'm in the business of teaching people how to defend themselves.  i had a parent last night make a million excuses of why she didn't have to work hard.  i asked her, "what happens if you're walking down the street, and someone tries to hurt your son?"  she said, "that won't happen, he's too fast."  really?  so, instead of suckin' it up and learning how to defend her family, she is banking on her son's speed to run from the situation.  and, if the attacker comes from behind?  then what?  and then they wonder why their kids make excuses...

i grew up with a dad who had a short temper.  so, growing up, i had one too.  i'd get pist at every little thing.  then, one day, i grew up and realized it was a trait that i no longer wanted to have.  so, i worked very hard at making it go away.  was it hard?  yes.  was it work?  yes.  do i still struggle?  yes.  but, i recognized the problem and changed it.  i could've just sat around and blamed my dad for it - or blamed the person who pissed me off to begin with...  but, i didn't.  it was a PERSONAL problem, so the change started at the root - ME.

quit your bit**in and your whining and do the freakin' work.

sooooo much fun.

so, i'm in chicago. i'm having suuuch a great time... we're in the lobby right now, getting some work done now... well, i have the intentions to (after i finish this blog. here's some pics of me, teen, and cheryl goofin' off in the lobby of the double tree magnificent mile, in the heart of chicago.



good fun, good people, good memories. i love it.

i heart technology.

only during our generation can i see and hear my relatives in the philippines for absolutely free. i love it!

october.

october's always kind of a bittersweet month for me. lots of changes start happening around this time for me...

seasons change, color of the leaves change, my schedule gets more hectic, etc. october also brings back a lot of painful memories. october 2005, God needed my dad up in heaven, so He took called him to be with Him. bittersweet, definitely.

my dad suffered from the unbeatable cancer of the liver. well, "unbeatable" 'cuz there's no cure... but, my dad was superman. he beat it. they gave him 6 months, he lasted 20. he was an amazing man who loved God, loved his family, and was absolutely selfless. being the first (and only) person in his family to move to the united states, he housed basically everyone who came here after him. his cousins, my mom's cousins, his sisters-in-law, brothers-in-law, nieces, nephews, etc. he opened his home to everyone who needed a warm bed to sleep in and a roof over their head. he was the most generous man i knew. he gave to everyone else, and didn't mind taking the hand-me-downs. my sisters, mom, and i would always drive around the new cars, and my dad would take the old, leftover ones. he never drove a new car.

anyway... he was just an amazing man. so, this post is dedicated to him. just for the world to see what an awesome guy he was. enjoy the pics.

my mom and dad... they loved each other so much...
dad and his favorite "white boy" grandson, blaine.
dad in puerto nuevo on father's day 2004, grubbin on some lobster... his fave!
my handsome dad and his killer smile that we all miss

please pray.

i don't know who reads my blog on the regular or anything, but, if you just so happen to come across this post - can you stop a minute and just pray? taking my mom to the hospital on tuesday. we really need the extra prayer.

thanks.

i'm related to idiots.

• i have a 40 year old cousin who acts 12. idiot.
• i have cousins who go to a wedding just to sit there and be bitter critters. idiots.
• i have cousins who, just after losing someone to suicide, can forget about how important it is to cherish the family we STILL have. IDIOTS.

life's too short to be a bitter critter.

so, what do i do with these "family" members of mine? pray for 'em and still love on 'em.

i love you.... idiots.

uhhh... weird.

does this make you wanna buy it?

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late night run

... no, no, no, not physically running, like for exercise or whatever... more like, you know - a FOOD run! Lol. so yeah, rally's out in cypress on beach & lincoln... Bomb fries!!!!!
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keep sippin'...

period.

he made a huge mistake - who hasn't?
he's trying to fix it - who wouldn't?
he's asked for forgiveness - God has, why can't you?

get over it.

carlos whittaker wrote a great blog about "second chances". i can't even count how many times i've been forgiven for all the effed up things i've done in my life. God is good and has called us to forgive. do it, because He forgave you.

period, the end.

diggin' the new gig

well, for those of you that don't know... i started a "<a href="http://www.8trackstudios.com">new gig</a>" a few weeks ago. it's definitely an answer to my prayers 'cuz prior to scoring this gig, i left my last one and was in the process of looking for another... and... In God's perfect style and timing, He hooked me up with something way better, more fun, and with a person i learned a ton from the past 2 years of my life... pretty awesome, right?!?

i look forward to learning a lot at this gig. i honestly already have learned quite a bit already, and i think that's the reason i dig it so much.

anyway, thanks God! you're awesome! and thanks trotter for hookin' it up!
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